Blogged while baby naps and husband cleans (he has his moments!)
Let’s start with a photo array, shall we? This is a fraction of what was on my phone – it’s amazing how many photos can pile up over 30 days when you have a baby.
Paxton’s third month was such a turning point. It all slowly seemed to get more doable and manageable. By no means easy, just less impossible. We also started getting back into real life again: out to dinner for Father’s Day and our birthdays, hosted a party, celebrated my birthday – and I went back to work, too. June was a good month.
The biggest focus for us was having 40 of our nearby family and friends over to our house to meet baby Paxton and enjoy delicious food cooked on our Big Green Egg. Remember my mom’s Christmas gift to us? Chef Todd Ginsberg (The General Muir, The Canteen) and Chef Terry Koval (Wrecking Bar) came over and grilled the most delicious chicken – there was a chicken mole, beer can chicken, chicken with chow-chow. I personally didn’t get to have any (too many people to talk to, plus dealing with the baby/pumping). But everyone said the food was yummy. The plan was to have the chefs demo and teach us how to grill on the Egg, but it was just too chaotic, and they just ended up grilling everything. Todd and Terry were so incredibly generous with their time and expertise – I will be forever grateful! Some photos from the party (wish I had more, but alas, the chaos):
After the house party, things got really hectic. First off, Minnie’s birthday! She turned 9, and we celebrated with squirrel chases at Piedmont Park.
We scheduled an at-home photoshoot with a talented photographer K2 worked with before: Anne Simone. Anne was amazing and so lovely to work with. She said that Paxton was such a smiley, happy baby (I love any and all compliments) and I don’t think she was pandering. Plus, she really seemed to take to Minnie, which of course, is the fastest way to my heart. I’d highly recommend Anne to anyone who needs a lifestyle photographer in Atlanta! Oh and if you haven’t gotten enough photos of Paxton and Minnie so far, click here to see everything from the shoot. (Enter your own email address and the password is kelly).
We did our photo session in the morning, and that afternoon was Paxton’s first drop-off at Bright Horizons daycare. Jason (who had taken the day off of work) and I went together, thankfully, because I bawled my eyes out. I will be forever grateful to the sweet teachers and staff at Bright Horizons who were so kind to me when they saw me losing it over leaving Paxton behind. Thank goodness a smart mommy friend recommended trial runs of day care drop-off before actually going back to the office (thanks Jenn Z!). It took 3 more drop-offs before I could do it without crying.
Why the tears? (Besides the fact that it’s all I seem to bring to the table lately.) The obvious is that I’m leaving my baby with a bunch of strangers that he doesn’t know, and who don’t know him. But it’s also the guilt – he deserves better than this, wish once of us could stop working (not me) and stay at home. Add on the internal dialogue that keeps circling: Am I a bad mom because I literally cannot be a stay-at-mom home? Should we have paid a small fortune for a nanny instead of daycare? Will Paxton forget who I am, since he won’t see me all day anymore? Is he going to be sick all of the time from the daycare germs? If he cries, will they love on him or will he be ignored? It’s exhausting.
Starting back to work wasn’t bad at all. I am fortunate to have a boss who is also a mom, and very understanding of the limitations of a working mom (who is also pumping). Us moms can still get our job done, and our job done well – but the format of working hours may look a little different than it was pre-baby.
Before we knew it, Paxton turned 4 months old! Here’s a slideshow of all of the takes it took to get the one 4-month picture:
Paxton’s Third Month Milestones and Noteables:
- Held his head up during tummy time without encouragement. Also eventually lifted head and chest up on his own, like a mini push-up.
- June 3: played in my first mixed doubles tennis match after having the baby. It was fun and good to get back on the courts.
- Starting to see spit bubbles now.
- Likes this book of red, black and white shapes with crinkly pages. Paxton likes to punch the pages and crinkle them.
- June 4: I swear he recognized himself in the mirror!
- When I eat broccoli, it may give him gas?
- June 6: took the newborn insert out of the car seat.
- Started holding on to his bottle.
- Sucks on his arm a lot, when being held over a shoulder.
- I finally figured out the Solly baby wrap thing, but of COURSE, Paxton refuses to be held in it. Oh my poor, aching back.
- June 16: SLEPT 10 HOURS IN A ROW!!! I got 7 hours. Hallelujah!
- June 18: Really pushing off with his legs during tummy time.
- Started grabbing and holding to stuffed animals…and my hair.
- Lots of grabbing things with his little baby hands.
- As Paxton is starting to wear clothes more frequently (per daycare), he tends to giggle when getting dressed or undressed. Pretty adorable.
- Consistently holding his head up during tummy time.
- June 26: Woke up crying from a bad dream, we think. Poor little guy.
- Jason falls asleep while feeding him a bottle. How..? Why..?
- June 28: Grammi said he grabbed his weenie and pulled it during a diaper change, and then started crying. Delicate parts there, baby boy!
- Loves to have us help him stand up and sit down, stand up and sit down, stand up and sit down (thanks for the find, Grammi!)
- June 30: held head up for 10 whole seconds while on elbows and tummy.
- Loves the mobile Grammi got him in his crib.
- Officially dropped the swaddle on during naps, the week of June 26 because daycare will not swaddle.
- July 1: cried real tears while waiting on a bottle to heat up.
- July 4: adorable baby giggles while “walking” up dad’s chest.